King of Carrot Flowers

(Ignore how obviously bad I look in this picture. It was my first day home from work.But Ethan looks cute.)

I can't sleep. It's been a long week. (But more on that later.) My job is killing me. But on the bright side, my managers agreed to let me change my schedule so Friday is my last day to close. I was so happy I could cry. The job has been really hectic lately. I haven't been this stressed in a while, and school just started. But I'm hoping next week will be better. 

The other night when I got home, I was on the verge of a panic attack. We had a fire at the job. (More on that later!) I couldn't sleep that night, so I came home and talked with Savvanah that night...it was fun. But I still couldn't sleep. So I called Ethan and begged him to come down (he lives on the top floor) and see me. He did. At one in the morning. He hugged me and told me it was going to be okay. I needed that. 

Then I came home Tuesday night and spent time with him. He rubbed my feet and watched The Colbert Report with me. The only thing to make that heaven would've been a pint of ice cream.:) 

My life isn't always easy. I don't have good days all the time. Some days I just want to cry out of frustration. Others I just want to run to the door with all my bags packed and head back home to East Texas. And others I don't want to get out of bed. But it's days like those that I'm thankful for the fact that if nobody else is in my corner, Ethan is. I know my family loves me, but they're not here with me every day. Days when I don't want to leave my room, I know someone would miss me. I'm not always the nicest woman in the world, and I don't always look like a movie star, but I know someone still likes me for who I am.

You're my best friend, and biggest supporter. (Here in Denton, anyway!:)) I love you, Ethan. 

This has been an emo moment. Carry on, nothing to see here.

Here's to hoping the sleep meds kick in soon.

Love, Ty:)